In Want: Reflected Rejection

You're cracking me up, brah You're my beloved friend flaw You're everything I need now Why did you do this to me somehow? I'm a drastic disgrace... Look at my smeared face... I am bleeding like wounds never healed... Never dealt with properly...lick my infection -a rejection left unconcealed... Your thoughtless talking Got me running and walking Our reflection of cyber-sensation is not genuine You're playing with my feelings and head now...that's mean... Where have you been? I have lost you...once again... How can I forgive you, boo, When we can't see face to face? Searching all over for you too Am I just this overwhelming disgrace? Oh, What now? Ah, now what? You have taken me on levels of frustration...I weep sleep in awake agitation Watching the process of abuse over the years Shallow swimmer, shadows out if the closet of velvet hesitation You and I together drives me in bittersweet tears In instant return, I get your rejection reflection I internally burn Not involved in your life of successful intervention.... Oh no, not anymore... Hurt alone to the core... I shed my blood of hate for our love on my own And, in your eyes, I'm a pitiful fool and the aftershocks of your actions had made it known and let it be shown...I don't care, I'd rather bleed in the inside alone... Alone, I will probably be... Not alone, you're so free... Wake me down...sleep me up...I give up and let me down like there's nothing to look up to French me up...Drench me down...illuminate my human nature and spiritual posture, my wandering dears You smell of pissed off rage and the rotten dump...in a single, hideous cup...having no clue Jug my tranquiled, torturesome tears, not your alcoholic, hopeless fears... I'm not overly religious Left with concealed lips I'm trying not to cuss... Getting my man grips... Your thoughtless talking Got me running and walking Our reflection of cyber-sensation is not genuine You're playing with my feelings and head now...that's mean... Where have you been? I have lost you...once again... How can I forgive you, boo, When we can't see face to face? Searching all over for you too Am I just this overwhelming disgrace? Oh, What now? Ah, now what? You have taken me on levels of frustration...I weep sleep in awake agitation Watching the process of abuse over the years Shallow swimmer, shadows out if the closet of velvet hesitation You and I together drives me in bittersweet tears In instant return, I get your rejection reflection I internally burn Not involved in your life of successful intervention.... Oh no, not anymore... Hurt alone to the core... I shed my blood of hate for our love on my own And, in your eyes, I'm a pitiful fool and the aftershocks of your actions had made it known and let it be shown...I don't care, I'd rather bleed in the inside alone... Alone, I will probably be... Not alone, you're so free... The bulge of your begging is slipping out of your underwear...your outerwear... The breasts of the beast is covered toe to head with furs of frustrated despair just a hair... I beg for your forgiveness... I'm sorry for this mess... I put you in for so long I'm making it up all along