In This Time Before I Die

I will find my way through the ruins of lives since past I will honour those who came before by making the same mistakes I will have cause and purpose without perspective or reason I will tell wicked lies and hide from the pain I will take comfort in harmful things but not let it get the best of me I will love recklessly and dispassionately causing more harm than good I will intend to apologize but will lose the opportunity I will capture haunting memories and replay them in a desperate need to feel I will long deeply for her, in silence I will misunderstand the value of being alone and regret it I will question all that I know from time to time or perhaps all at once I will spend all that I have chasing a dream only to wake up midway through I will with good intention do the very least that I can I will wonder what it was all really for anyway And yet, I will continue to search For something Other than Myself