In the Still Silence

In the still silence I feel you breathing but you aren’t with me. I feel you holding me and you aren’t even next to me. I catch you staring at me but you haven’t even talked to me for weeks. In the still of the silence I lose my mind. I am wrapped up in delusion and tucked away with denial. Where are you? Where am I without you? Why am I without you? How am I without you? I cannot be without you. But here in the stillness I lay awake, undeniably, disagreeably, silently without you.