In My Mind You Never Fade

Like an old photograph with wrinkled edges my mind returns to the times that are etched, So vividly they flash through my mind's screen, times that I cherish when our love set us free. I wish so much the bad words I could take and throw away, for every second that we have we should be so amazed. our love is a gift we were given to hold tight, I am sorry when I've made things worse and chosen to fight. This photograph of us deserves my care, In my mind I feel you are aware. I have no excuse for tears and pain, I felt it too is all that I can say. It seems a joke on us at times to steal the sweet embrace the kisses and the glances that haunt me every day. Why can't I tell you what losing you did to me It only seems to make you feel not worthy. But please know I realize how I let you slip, through my fingers with my jealous trips. I could kick myself and believe me I have so much, Do you know the pain of realizing I lost true love? Maybe this is what you don't see, you think I blame you and you only, No I don't it's just it was a shock for me. I cried and cried for hours, days and weeks. I cannot lie to you my love my heart and soul, the day you disappeared carved a place that won't let go. But it is not your fault you had the right to leave, I needed to wake up and see my life and faults before me. It doesn't mean that it doesn't hurt, I may never get relief from the scars that lurk. I don't blame you not at all please understand I hate myself for letting passion make me mad. I hurt from self inflicted wounds that stare me down. I put them there and still my peace just can't be found. My mind it plays that screen and looks at that photo I stare and stare but I can't make my foolish actions not show. So you see it isn't your fault at all, you handled it like you knew to have resolve, of course I throw the blame at times when my heart bleeds the stains are those that I flung so wild and free. I cannot tell you what the pain is like, to know you had the one and only in your life. I play the moment that will never stop in my mind. the day I lost your love is stuck on rewind. I hear the ghostly words you did this to yourself, they've played so many times the words now even yell. I cannot escape them because I know what price was paid. My mind, my soul, my heart, my lips will never be the same. The day our love got tossed and thrown so foolishly away.