In My Grave

A weak shout louder than a gun shot Out of a mouth full of depressed misery and dead emotions A walk to infinity A search for the light in a place so bright, yet so dark Between sun light and dawn Where birds sing for roses Away in distance Where destiny lead my way It's going to be okay Last words my ears choose to hear To relieve the pain in my heart Darkness filled my eyes Don't try to make it shine I smell the end I feel the tears of grief drowning me alive I lay down in my coffin Under the soil In the freezing ground Isolated from all around No need to make a sound Or wear the mask that hides what's beneath Surrounded with woods beneath the ground just as I was Tossed as a stone Like a leaf fallen from an autumn tree into a lake so deep With my skinless skull and wrist bones where cuts of regret cant be seen I lay In my cave In my only home With my only friend My rival my enemy I can't let go... Thoughts rushing into my mind Bursting in and out Words I never thought I'd speak Words my tongue never dares to say Well...now I know how it feels Now after I'm gone My lips are fading My soul is drowning My body is decaying I reach the limit Where heart beats doesn't matter Where I can't breathe the air Where my only road is to hell I'll bathe in fire from this day and forever Never made you proud Forgive me and make it better Two roses laid on my grave Endless time passes as the sun goes by Nothing stirs Pure melody in silence A selfish wind blows taking with it one and there goes one in vain dropping it to far away I gaze through emptiness Waiting for my eternal time to end For my angel to appear And save my weeping spirit from my sins Which have become my reality...