In My Children's Eyes

Mommy, why do you keep putting that needle in your arm? Why do you keep putting us at harm? Mommy why do you keep putting that needle in your leg? How many times do we have to plead and beg? Mommy, are we not enough for you to put the drugs down? Are we not worth being around? Mommy please, you have to let the drugs go. We want our old mommy back and all the love you used to show. Our beautiful mommy who was forever so lively and bright. Can't be so weak to give up this fight. Do you want to watch us grow up big and strong? Do you not realize your teaching us wrong? Slowly we watch as your slipping away. All we do is worry more and more everyday. Mommy, you need to face your addiction, no longer can you run. You have two children who need you, a daughter and a son. We are so scared that one day we will find our mommy dead. With a needle in her arm, lifeless on the bed. If your not strong enough to do it for us then do it for yourself. Stop making us worry about your safety and health. We just want our mommy back, the way she used to be. Before the drugs took over, a loving caring mommy is what we need. Mommy, we need you out here with us, helping dad. We are so sick and tired of being lonely and sad. Its not fair for daddy to raise us on his own. So get your act together, get clean and come home. We hope this time you can truly stay sober. We hope this time it will finally be all over. Once again be the loving mother and wife we know you can be. We miss you so much mommy and hope this time you can stay clean. Mommy, you are very loved by us but we cant accept the things you choose to do. You can win this battle mommy, we know you can because we believe in you. This poem is dedicated to my children: Daunavyn and DayonaLee I wrote this while being incarcerated at Sarasota County jail. I am a struggling addict trying hard to accomplish my goal and become a recovered addict. When I took the time to see my addiction through the eyes of my children I finally realized how much it had, is and was affecting them.