In Church
First I didn't want to go
I was hurting so much to see myself in that holy building
But I went, I had too
This was my one day commitment in a week to be in the house of Lord with the family of Christ
I sat in church, in the back as I always do
Filled with so much anger
My heart aching so much
I couldn't understand why..
I was resisting the urge to be on my phone and type some angry words
I decided to be optimistic so I wrote the words below
From the little teaching I heard from the pastor:
God's handwriting
God help me
Grow
reproduce
introduce
learn
appreciate
accept
Be wise
And I felt better for a minute but my mind went back to the issue...
I wanted to scream
My eyes were welling up
Luckly my glasses are dark
The congregation laughed to the jokes, the pastor continued teaching
This feeling. ..
Took me back few years ago as I sat in my college poetry club
I had poetry that I thought was really good
But the other eight people or so on the table
Always thought otherwise
I read their poems, like they did mine and told my honest take on them
Like they did mine, but they couldn't understand it
My poetry language was so different from theirs
my metaphors, my symbolism, my themes never made sense
To them
I couldn't understand why...
Am I that different even in poetry?
So I stopped attending that club because i felt like it always brought me down
I wasn't growing
And I stopped writing poetry all together
The only thing that gave me voice since my teenage years
But now I get it, I write for me
And maybe the few that may understand me
Copyright © Njeri Hunjeri | Year Posted 2015
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