I'M Your Only Sacrifice

I'm Your Only Sacrifice You have me live up to your expectation and provide even more,could this be your own private game? You call me mean,but I can't be nice when there's nothing nice in front of me. You call me cold,but I can't be warm when the world iced over. You call me sad,but I can't be happy when all there's is sadness in your own eye's. You call me jaded,but I ca't reconnect to emotion that died in me upon your very wish. You tell me over and over to smile,but what the point if I long forgot to smile. You tell me over and over to be happy,but isn't the point to be thankful to be alive and live the life given to you. You tell me over and over release those emotion and let other in,but I've seen the broken spirit of letting other near without a thought of the trouble. You tell me over and over to be less distance and away from the warmth,but all that matter's is that what taken care of is done. You tell me over and over to not grieve,but who are you to say such words when your the one grieving the most. Though these be my own childish whim's,I refuse to let my wounds have salt poured into them and you look over me while they burn and slowly disappear. I want to let go but for all that it worth these weren't your dreams for me,to build that break wall not only to other's but toward you as well. I will hold your hand even while you cry,I'll hold on until i can't.For you see I am your backbone your my light the reason for my jaded heart. This is my own sacrifice,I chose this one for myself and not one given to me. In ever little thing this is m only true fear.I will lose myself in the end.So call me what you want for it nothing more superficial scandal,That I have no need to control no more even if I be your only Sacrifice