I'M Tired

I'm tired of all these fears I'm tired of my tears I'm tired of so much ache That's why my smiles are fake What should I call it when all I'm feeling is pain Then loved one's look at me and all I see is shame I don't want them knowing exactly how I suffer Crying so much each and every day is even tougher I feel like this is an all time low Nothing can make me happy so darkness begins to grow No joy, no hope, no drive It's all a failure to strive Only confusion and doubt All this suffering and I still can't speak out Life is unfair with all this anguish I can't bare And the way I feel is too hard to share This endless sorrow is so tough to live through Why do I always have to be so sad and blue I'm tired of all these fears I'm tired of my tears I'm tired of so much stress And not being able to express Dreadfully sad to know what's true And how could I not have a clue Some will believe I just didn't care Even I want to know how I was not aware People around try to pretend What I am going through they comprehend Then these people talk about me behind my back And this just causes me to have another panic attack I realize I need help some kind of support Because this will just get worse when it's time for court He has already taken too much and caused so much pain So why should I give him more satisfaction when he is the one insane Give sometime for me to get back to being me One day I'll be strong again so I can be free I'm tired of all these fears I'm tried of my tears I'm tired of so much pain So this, I'm trying to explain