I'M Tired

I’m tired……. Tired of smiling when I’m dying inside Tired of looking for a safe place to hide Tired of loving when I am turned away Tired of trying to find right words to say I’m so tired…. Tired of always trying so hard to please Tired of daily feeling ill at ease Tired of feeling that I’m so small Tired of just waiting for you to call I’m so very tired... Tired of pretending to be alright Tired of crying after one more fight Tired of seeing unfulfilled desire Tired of failures that put out the fire I’m so very extremely tired… Tired of trying hard to measure up Tired of drinking this bitter cup Tired of wishing beauty to be mine Tired of hoping it will all be fine God, you know I’m tired… Tired of wounding You time after time Tired of waiting for heaven sublime Tired of longing for perfection in me Tired of waiting from guilt to be free I’m tired… Maybe you’ll understand the reasons why I want you to know, I really did try But I’m shriveled up and empty inside There is no place left this raw hurt to hide I’m tired; I have no strength left to stand Guess I’m just too proud to reach for your hand I wish I could make you really “see” me And not this monster that I’ve come to be I’m tired; I’ve no charm to make love last No magic to erase the sordid past I’ve learned that life is cruel, mean and unkind Happiness was not for me to find. I’m tired; I can bring this to an end You know it is too hard this heart to mend You know I’m much too tired to try to live My last breathe of life is all I can give…. I’m TIRED!