I'M Sorry I Wasn'T Enough To Make You Stay

I'm sorry I wasn't enough to make you stay, I'm sorry that you got bored so soon. I know, I wasn't expecting it either. I tried to be the enough, I really did. I did my skincare, even if it took at least two hours, I did my haircare, even if it took all my strength just to stay awake. I combed my hair until I fell asleep so it would look slick and clean. I tried to be as perfect as I could, Maybe it was because I couldn't call that one night, Maybe it was because of instead of talking about how I felt when you ghosted me, I cried in my room instead. In my bed I was wondering why I wasn't enough for you. I wondered what I did to anger you, I knew you were going to leave, I just didn't know when. And... then you left, My entire world turned gray, Lightning replaced the white-fluffy clouds. Life had seemed to lose all purpose, Out of all this, the true you seemed to surface. I loved you, I really did. And I still do, Even enough to want to love me too.