I'M Sorry

I'm sorry I was never the perfect daughter, the perfect sister, the perfect wife, the perfect mother, the perfect girlfriend, the perfect friend. I tried my hardest to be what you wanted me to be but it was never enough. I failed as a wife and a mother for letting things get so out of control when they did. There's too many problems in my life, I'm full of baggage like some may say. But I'm living my life one day at a time. It may not be the life I want but I'm trying my hardest and making up for the past. I've said my apoligizes. I've made my mistakes. I've burned the bridges and lit a candle. I'm striving for that perfect life that seize to exist. I know there's some one out there for me who can take me as I am. But how long is it going to take? It's been a year and I'm sorry but I've failed on finding a new daddy for my childern A daddy they deserved. A daddy that wouldn't do the things the last one did. I'm sorry I've failed again maybe next year my childern and I will find THE ONE. If he exist. I just have to stop looking for him and let him find me.