I'M Sorry

I always make the wrong choices Listen to the devil and his evil voices I can't count the battles I've lost But the war is what I try to win Most mistakes I can't take back Or right the wrong back on track But I have to try my best And then to you I leave the rest I miss how it was before Even though I kicked down the door That you lovingly held open for me The good thing I had I just couldn't see All the things I should've said and meant And a million apologies couldn't dent The pain I know I left with you There's no excuse for the things I do No way to take it all away No Magic words I can say It was so hard to tell I even cared I didn't deserve what was shared You held out your heart to me As I now wear my heart on my sleeve Love and trust forever are broken And all I'm left with is this token A permanent reminder of my own stupidity The memories of how it could be I'm sure you hate me with all your might And detest the thought, the very sight I can't now look you in the eye For my guilt burns like a brutal lie Every ounce of my soul is bleeding While my heart to you is pleading To erase my mistakes before I die From the regret of not being man enough to try I don't expect you to ever forgive me I just hope you believe me, I'm sorry for not being true For starting and not following through Please believe if I could do it again Beside you still, I would've been Holding your hand everywhere we'd go That's just a dream of mine now I know Still, I'm sorry to your heart from mine And I still love you; I have the entire time