I'M So Afraid

I had control I held it well Upon my throne You could never tell That deep inside My fate was sealed I'm so afraid Of the way I feel Grasping for straws to help clear my mind Look behind The shadows of fear come and crawl behind Stay away I'm starting to crack and I... The trigger's cold My fingers are hot My muscles twitch As I await the shot It never comes It never will I'm so afraid Of the way I feel Dance in the rain of machine gun fire Dear God, it hurts Holding onto what's left of my control Set to burst I'm begging for peace and I... I walk along The dusty tracks The sun's hot rays Are scorching my back I'd sell my soul I'd make a deal I'm so afraid Of the way I feel Praying for a moment to catch my breath Crash into me The terror that comes with loss of control All I feel I wish I could die and I...