I'M Not Ready To Accept

It's surely not the way I'd plan it It is surely not the way I foreseen it Idiots, stupids, dumb... Names I'm calling myself For once I thought I was certain Never had I imagine it would all end up this way How can I be happy When you've took all my happiness away with you How can I forget you When I'm always thinking of you How can I stop loving you When I've always love you With you I'd thought I stand a chance I blew it all up Lack of confidence Lack of commitment Lack of trust Leads me to all this loneliness I know for sure what I feel for you But to keep you seems so hard You must hate me right now I gather Never did I want to lose you But my pride and my ego was in the way Why it's so hard, when you make it so easy I refused to accept that this is over I still can't believe that I have been knocked down Got nobody else but myself to blame Why do I have to be stubborn I need to learn to forgive and try to let go I need to patience Ever since you've gone My mind hasn't rest at all I've got nobody but myself to blame I'm sorry I been able to say how I feel You are mine no matter what I'm not prepared to accept this defeat I do not believe its over all over again No, not just now Please forgive me... ...I'm weak!