I'M Not Afraid

My life you may not understand, as far as you know it is a wonderland. There is an immense sadness that lives inside me, but it does not define who I may be. Most times I lay awake till sunrise, the way I’ve been living has made me wise. I may live in fear everyday, but that does not mean I won’t be okay. Although sometimes I don’t want to be alive, that doesn’t mean I will never strive. I can still slightly envision a future for me, even though my sadness is at this degree. Do not tell me to look on the brightside, with no experience to provide. Saying this will make me mad, for I am not afraid to be sad. Do not tell me it will all be okay, because it may not turn out that way. Even though tears may fall down my cheek, I will never surrender to being weak. Do not get me wrong, it is hard to be strong. The sadness that may hide my grin, I will never let it win.