I'M Leaving You

I’m leaving you I’m sorry Forgive me When you find this note This silly piece of paper That can’t possibly carry All the little fears That are tying my heart Into knots… Don’t hate me! I’m leaving Because….because I’m afraid You’re too perfect Too kind Too gracious Too loving Too protective It scares me I’m not used to being loved Genuinely Truly…for who I am And not for what I do Or what I give! I’m leaving Before I mess things up And break your heart And shatter your dreams Before I drive that knife Of doubt Into your soft beautiful heart Before I become needy And demanding And impossible to live with I’m leaving I’m afraid of my feelings Afraid I’ll idolize you Do your every bidding And so lose myself, That you will find nothing in me... To entice you To tantalize you To keep you wanting And craving Nothing that will make you want to Continue to explore My soul My body My mind My dreams I’m leaving Because I just love you way too much…. To stay! Eileen Manassian Ghali