I'M Confused

Am I living for a reason? Although it seems like the ones I love are disappearing every season. Leaving me all alone to sit, to rot. That's how I feel. The things I go through seems unreal. Trying to find things that can help me deal with these situations, but I can't find them. Am I going to be here tomorrow? Things and people I encounter brings me much sorrow. Making it hard for me to face tomorrow. The love people give me they don't let me have it but let me borrow. Until it seems like I'm okay. Why must we suffer? We suffer everyday whether you know it or not. Wake up everyday worried, afraid. Not knowing what might come of this. Not knowing what we might face. How hard am I trying? or am I trying to hard. Why? Am I dying to live? or just living to die?.......................... ANSWER ME! PLEASE! I'm confused........