Im a Christian

I'm a Christian,but
Lord,what's up?
I feel like he'll
Just can't get enough
Lord,I know your love
Came in my life
From heaven above
I'm a Christian,but
This morning I
Just don't feel like
Dats enough
This morning I've felt
Abused misused
Since I was little
And as an adult today
I've been misunderstood
I'm a Christian,but
It hurts sometimes
Not feeling like
What Christ said we're worth
Yes I'm a Christian and He
Continuously blesses me
Yet waking up as a Christian
I woke up feeling empty
Yes I know I'm His Child
That He is King
But I still feel like
There's something missing
I keep attaching myself to
To unsaved females and
Unsaved men who want
Nothing to do with what
God promised to me
From heaven,but they
Keep seeing to try
And destroy it
I'm a Christian,but my earthly life has been in trouble
Even though Prophets
Have spoken God's double
I obey Him inspite of how
I may feel
Is it me,hell,or NYC
That's against me?