Illusion In Distance

The distance was too much The pain was too great I had decided To leave it up to fate To let someone else decide To let something else choose I realized that My only option is to lose That feeling of love This feeling of pain Now I know What has plagued my brain To live in illusion A fantasy fate By the time I snapped It was already too late Back to reality The horror filled real No one to hold No thing to feel Its time to realize What happened to me I've lived in delusion Because I felt free Now I realize There's nothing for me