Illusion

Not quite able to keep up with the pace, i do try and improvise at every step. Steps that matter, steps which are insignificant, knowing stars will never get counted, perhaps manipulations will. And then something abstract hounds me in the sleep, A Chimera drags me at a distant nameless place, hardly helping me getting rid of the existent agony. Conceivably in the dark i live, where nothing whatsoever is clear. Not quite sure if this dream even belongs to me, sure though, that tonight is going to be no different from the day before. Just when I would catch on, it will fade away. Something I am completely involved in, but cannot put my fingers on. It will disappear, unanswered! As it has been doing every single night! Leaving me illusive!