I'Ll Pay the Cost

I've tried and tried, but now I am worn, It's time to stop, and it's time to mourn. I'm tired of the fears, the tears, the pain, Nothing changes when it stays the same. Thinking I was right, knowing I waa wrong, Became very weak where once I stood strong. Just wanting to feel love with daily care, ended up taking on too many burdens too bare. You see I lose myself when it comes to fear, all reason and logicc will somehow disappear. Instead my emotion begins to take the lead, deceptive illusion tells me I have what I need. As time passes , fear actually increases more, then I begin to miss what I once had before. I had confidence, security and hope within, looking to the future, not where I have been. Now I want back the qualities I seem to have lost, no matter what may be the price, I'll pay the cost.