If Your Reflection Could Kill

I don't know what to say to you... I'm sorry Juliet my once proud Juliet do you need an explanation to why I'm struggling to find a solution to the question 'Why should I bother to talk to you again' I try to tell you so many times before but I didn't want to be shunned away from you so forgive me if my words shun you away from me Juliet, Juliet I admit, I admit you are my longest reigning friend you're owed a parade, a bouquet of flowers sorry just not from me May I say, may I say you look even more beautiful since the first time your eyes reined me in so why is your ugly side the one to rise to surface I'm only being honest For years, for years I've been your best friend, your shoulder to cry on I've been your Romeo standing underneath your balcony comparing thee to the Sun to rise in the East hoping to be your knight, your prince, your king yet you place me on a board and ironed me out while you write 'Home Sweet Home' on my chest but today, I'm not your doormat I just want answers, all I want are answers I don't know what to say to you to your face, no so I say this indirectly so you can let it sink in so here let me strap you to this chair, clasp you in restraints and pry your eyes open so you can finally see to ask yourself, 'Is this really me' I don't know what to say to you after the 6 years I've known you after the 7 months we've been together Do you care to fill in the blanks why No? Well let me take a stab at it like you chose to deliver me in my back when you paraded me around your friends like I'm a trophy you won for some mediocre talent like you're selling tickets to a freakshow and I'm the main attraction Let me take a jab at it while you punch me across the face while you come to me, saying you need me saying that you're in need of comfort yet when I put on my cape, put the 'S' on my chest come to your aid, be your superhero meet your gaze with mine I'm just instantly the farthest thing on your mind a paper plane amongst your thoughts as you ignore Let me bombard you with bombs of truth as you bombarded me with sadness all those times you ended it with us for what 2 weeks? Twice? for what 6 months because you needed to be held because you needed to feel the rush of a touch Was every ounce of the love I gave you not enough I guess I was a just a dog on a leash waiting to be fed a truth or were you feeding me lies Fill in the blanks so I can decide if you're someone I despise I don't know what to say to you for the way I see you behave I thought I knew you well but I don't Juliet, who are you I remember your face, I remember your name but you're beyond different from the girl I thought I knew I used to spend my nights till 4 in the morning floating on a sea of clouds in your voice now I dive headfirst in a hurricane just to avoid it All that you do it bothers me, crawls under my skin You chase guy after guy each one living a lie and you know the story, you know they don't stay for love they stay for the glory still you cling to love like a crutch like you know what it is when you just repeat the very same exact words when the torch is passed Your version of a relationship is a marriage in a day Why else would you claim you're in love in a day and it ends the next Fill in the blanks tell me if I'm wrong I want to know I want the truth to flow from your lips for if it's a lie, let them shut forever You have a question for me? Why did I stay so long if I have such hostility towards you why stay if I burn everytime I have a memory of you One simple answer: I said forever I told you once, forever No matter what, I had your back and I'd take a bullet for you if it comes to that but since then I've taken 10 bullets,5 stabbings, and a beheading all at your hands So you ask why I stay if you've caused me so much I don't know, maybe I feel like I owe you something What it could be, I don't know but you owe me something: my heart I gave it to you on a silver string, a gift but I never got it back when you left On second thought, keep it it's corrupted, a black pearl of hate and anger You weren't the cause but you feed the flames I'll just create an artificial of paper and string I don't know what to say to you Are you satisfied, you're free to go I don't know what to say to you Will you take the truth and take it to heart or will you treat it like trash and throw it away I don't know what to say to you not to your face I once found beauty in it but I had broken all mirrors so your reflection couldn't kill me So a gift to you here's the mirror I broke in your reflection what do you see