If You Knew

If you knew All the thoughts That I knew were true How many times I fought To try and tell myself that They couldn't possibly be true I've had hold on to dear life But why I could have been long gone I wouldn't have to try and stay Maybe I'm just hoping Hoping things will get better But I know they won't Things could never get better Because I have to many worries To many tears So many stories That I wish could just disappear I just want to be happy But I could never feel that Because I am nothing What am I even here for Why am I living Why aren't I dead I should have been gone by now That's what they have said