If Tonight Was My Last

IF TONIGHT WAS MY LAST.........    it would be okay.......I have lived a good life......and found the blessings in pain..... I have inspired people for lifetimes.......and helped show loves way..... I have jimmied locks on minds........so the traps would break...... I have cried enough tears.......and caused some grand change..... I have discovered that dungeons and dragons are very real things......in the spirits energy frame..... I have seen the supernatural.......up close in my face......... have been scared to death.......pretended I was okay......and made my way.... i have loved those that won't ever return the same love...... and I know nobody I can change.......I can only show signs a love divine.... and hope my help won't fade....... always a being of love.......in a world so lacking of grace........ and like the women I love the most......it helps me feel life is alive..... when I cry these tears........that I guess I want to stay....... though like cunningham I love happy days....... but what's ed is being alone......without a girl.....who feels the same..... to kiss and hold me......and say baby you'll be okay..... I miss the few days.......that heaven opened up it's gates...... but I could not stay.......my job was too low pay.....and i couldn't afford the rent..... so I got kicked the out.......now with permanent scars and dents...... though I was left with party favors......like our lords intoxicants...... and I still make ladies hot........but I'm as good as shot...... without one to understand who I am.......and the plot in which I can rock..... trapped talent in my head its a sickness.......nose fulla snot........ on lock like I'm caught........by a new mystical woman...... and I don't like the way we talk........even though I speak daily with god cause I need her physical touch........cause I'm still sick ....... and prolly have withdrawls from pot........ maybe she really thinks I'm evil.........like the devil with all this love....... something of fairytales........that this planet profit off....... but don't believe in that much........ I'm strong enough........to reveal true vulnerability........ so far distant and local powers.......have watched over me........ and the god in me as well.........full of prolific magic spells...... showing this world it's heart........and how I've always felt....... a artist of heights rarely known........skills full blown but humble and postponed.... as I leak my phyzeek slow........cautious as I grow.......... so many of painful past........so I bare my words naked...... and it is difficult on this path.........but I know angels watch over....... I wasnt fortunate enough to have a mother and dad....... But hip hop was like a father ........who resides in my brain...... revelations revealed.......are the essence of why I came...... seduced by the most beautiful queens.......and burnt by tortured loves...... I've given before all I am.........and found it's not enough....... because I'm just love.........and I'm not rich like puff.........I'm just love...... and I'm sicker than hell.......as my future moves feet in heavens...... higher powers have given me knowledge.......beyond most everyones comprehension... so underground I'm hailed royalty........but it don't make much sense...... cause I feel so alone.......... even though theres others like me....... I have so much emotion inside..........I'm afraid to kill the stage....... reading signs .....like pearl jams riot act........so I hold back my rage..... a young sage who found ways.......to help you bless the page......