If He Wanted To

If he wanted to, He would. At least That’s what everyone says. You spend your time Defending someone Who never tries And is never there. You’re on your knees, Begging And pleading That he visit your house (It’s what your parents want.) There’s hope that he will, But it’s the baseless kind. There’s no proof that he will, None that you can find. He never shows up To the first birthday he’s with you. He does last minute plans And keeps you on edge. He’s all talk and promise Which in time you’ll learn Should never be heard Because he’ll forget again later. He tells you that you’ll Be seeing the new marvel movie. ‘Together’, He adds, and you smile like crazy. He goes to the movie, Alone with his friends. He’s upset when you go, With one of your own. Anger controls him When you’re with other people, Jealousy consuming him, Thinking you’ll leave. He talks big, But his vision is small. He’s all lies Masked as pretty promises. He never treated you right, Not the way you deserved. You settled for less, When you should have had more. His friend took you out On little dates. ‘Boyfriend by proxy’, Doing all he should have. And of course, He gets mad at that. He half asses your time, When you’re giving him every second And he’s giving you none. Spends every weekend out, And it’s never with you. Then the tables turn And he’s always in, Getting upset When you’re going somewhere. He becomes controlling, In a way you don’t see Because you love him, You’re blind to all that he is. He’s nothing like The person you met, Which isn’t bad But it’s not any better. He doesn’t come visit Unless it’s in luxury, Not that he has the funds To get him that way. It’s never been you, But it’s always been him. When you look back on it now, You realize what it is. If he wanted to, He would. How true that is. It just goes to show He never did, So did he ever want to? (No, he did not.)