I Wrote This Poem When I Was Cheated On Lol

am i the loser ten years of anger ten years of pain built up inside like a bucket of rain ready to pour and let it all out ready to cuss, scream and just shout but when the day came all i did was go deaf all i could hear was my heart in my chest i seen your lips moving but there was no sound as i got up to walk i almost lost ground but i made it to the door without shedding a tear because showing you one drop was something i feared i told my kids i loved them and gave them kiss piled on more emotions wishing knowledge was bliss how could i explain to my kids that life is'nt fair how could i give a reason for why im not there i blame you for ruining this family and another man's life another man's child and another man's wife ;( you cheat and you lie and you have no remorse and now youre happy with the way your life has taken it's course so you say he is going to leave her to hang out with you but how can you trust him when no one trusts you