I Wish You Knew
This is the tragedy
Of how I lost it all.
It happened the night
I denied your call.
I was dazed, I was drunken
I heard the barman’s voice.
I then blindly decided
You were my second choice.
I was completely unprepared
For the news I received.
“Not my love, it’s a lie”
As I broke down and heaved.
If only I answered
If only I heard.
You’d be my first choice,
Not my second nor third.
Though a little too late
I’ve learned my lesson,
I’ll think not even once
About ignoring my blessing.
I should’ve done this
A long time ago.
I know it’s too late
But I thought you should know:
I’m sorry I wasn’t better,
Sorry I wasn’t the same.
I’m sorry I can’t take back
The fool that I became.
I’m sorry I couldn’t express
Just how I really felt,
And I wish that you knew
You’re the reason I knelt.
Every morning when I woke,
Every night while you slept.
You might not have noticed,
But my promise I had kept.
I prayed for forgiveness
I prayed for advice.
I prayed for myself
But I prayed for you twice.
If only you knew
You’re the reason I’m living.
You’ve filled me with hope
But I’ll never be forgiving.
I wish I could change
Your heartbreaking fate.
Twelve months sober
But twelve months too late.
I wish that you knew
I’m still in love with your ghost,
And I’m sorry I wasn’t there
When you needed me most.
Copyright © Samantha Senft-Greenberg | Year Posted 2014
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