I Wish I Was Heartless

I WISH I WAS HEARTLESS. I wish I was heartless to the core, I would have unbottoned your mind Throw them on the earth to be eaten by The hungry grave who never get satisfied. I wish I was the heartless lion everyone Thought I was so that I won't feel pains again. I wish I couldn't feel love but hatred in my eyes, To damn those who don't really care of my existence. I wish I was heartless to kill him Who defiled and ate my forbidden fruit, I wish I'd never cared about him that night. I could have been happier now and forever. I wish I'd not listened to those panicking voices, I wish I was David in face of the Hynas, I wish I was Samson in the temple to destroy, It might be my only way than killing myself publicly. I wish I could see someone who could Teach me righteously how to be heartless and cold, How to destroy and never feel bad about it, How to change my real face to that of a demon. I wish my blood was heartless to that man, It could have not allow that gay to contaminate Its purity to a bad rotten shinning blood to Run away from in the face of goodness. I wish I was heartless to kill all who critique to kill, They don't understand a poet's emotions and Feelings, what it means to write and re-write And write again to suits your choice of word. I wish I was a heartless teacher in a school, I wish I was a heartless proprietor in a school, I would make poetry writing a mandatory to all the Students and learners in my school of thought. I wish I was heartless in the heart, I won't think about you and others who hurt me, I would act as a tourist in a foreign country, And make no standard words to them that smiles. But now, I am not heartless because I am human; Human with feelings and emotions for others, Forgive me for being human and not heartless As the jungle kings in the forest of life. (C) John Chizoba Vincent Voice Of Vincent 2016