I Will Make It There!

I try to write to ease my pain. I want release from the burden of my thoughts. I need to feel that I am still sane. Will there ever again be any peace? Will the chaos in my brain ever quiet? Will I always be faced with this inner beast? Make me see my reason for being. Make my turmoil come to an end. Make it all have some meaning. It seems like I am drowning in my own self pity. It feels as if I have lost my self. It's like I cannot fight my own emotional deformity. There has to be an end to all this sorrow! There can be no point to this life if it's always the same! There must be a way to change my tomorrow!