I Will But I Still

It started with a dream of him, immediately he stole my heart His tiny wide-eyes bewitched me and I held him tight in my arms But then I discovered it was a dream And being awoken made me grieve It took some time but I realized that he will exist in fact And this is now my preparation to get myself intact I know that I will love him more than anyone has ever loved another being To the greatest extend that my love could reach and I will do anything for him I will raise him to be compassionate not just the things you would learn at college And I will make sure he is healthy and wealthy in love and knowledge I will raise him to have a strong mind and the strongest most purest heart I will guide him and protect him and show him my refined love for art I will be his warrior, his earth angel and always there to console And I have no doubt in my mind that he is the reason that I become whole But I am not yet ready for him to make his grand entrance in my life I still need to discover the little bits of me that I’ll only find in other parts of the world I still need to evolve into the woman that can rear him I still need to dream and make mistakes I still need to explore and be spontaneous and selfish I still need to fall and pick myself up I still need to love and be loved I still need to grow And when I am ready for him, I’ll know