I Wanted To Say

I wanted to say I meant you no harm. I did not expect to cause so much alarm. I did not wish to have ever hurt you. Still this is all that I seem to do. I wanted to say or maybe just sigh I feel a piece inside of me die. All that I say are merely words. I wonder if they are truly heard. I walk away with this lump in my throat. It wasn’t my intention to rock the boat. I see so much that I still don’t know. Tears come to my eyes, I turn to go. I wish for forgiveness, I hope for some. The sun will rise and daylight does come. I turn and start to walk back down my path. Things don’t add up, I can’t do the math. I wanted to say that I do really care. Things have gone now beyond repair. It makes me sad so I remember a smile. I just get lost every once in a while.