I Try

I try but find I don’t like me I’m not the soul I want to be What I am, not what you see Search inside, and you’d agree I’m lost, its dark, this life has cost Lines life’s drawn, without thought crossed In turmoil’s depth I've failed to cope Along the way I lost all hope Within I strive to reach the light But chosen solace slows the fight I try to do what’s good, what’s right So hard to win, when day’s like night Self-pity grows from small a seed All I am, not what you read Patience, love and time I need I try but find I don’t like me, I struggle on, I must be freed