I Thought She Was

It never was what you thought and my heart told me I could be playing a fool and her words I love you didn’t mean the same thing like many things she just said them to want to say it. Perfect timing? Yeah that was it. It just sounded good. She doesn’t know lies told the truth in her eyes….wait she doesn’t care. LOVE just like UNDERSTANDING just words used from her lips that she tried to kiss me with. Venom juices in between, I must be immune to a snakes poisons kisses. When I slept she attacked me in my dreams with a smile that would kill if you paid attentions has she hides behind Her Mask. She’s beautiful only at times, though can be cold and mean. This couldn’t last, there is no way. What was I thinking she was dreaming of babies running around? Say what? Not a solid mental state and it was fate that decided against her wishes, I thank God. I’m praying for the next guy coming along punching his time clock as I walk out the door asking what’s going on? Realize that we could be so foolish at times and blinded by things we can only have in dreams. I do my best trying not to listen to what other said but… Having seconds thoughts, taking its toll I’m stuck wishing for better luck doesn’t cut it. I should have known when she disappeared like the morning fog like the sun hitting the due on the ground. Its dried excuses came. Yeah it’s the same thing. I’m ignored often. Phone calls go unanswered as I watch the story unfold. Soap operas, this won’t be the days of my life fighting to survive a relationship with the words I Love You are lose and plenty, 3 to 4 months later its told to others. One moment it’s all good then someone must have hit the switch on her back because she flipped. I’m this; I’m that, I’m wrong, she’s right. It’s an over the top argument in which I refuse to engage and then I noticed something was wrong reading in between the lines my eyes opened. Day dreaming as I lift my head she’s walking towards me, same smile, same lips. Deja vu caught me. I thought she was just a dream…