I Should Be Over You

i am trying to understand your reasons im trying to figure out why i keep telling myself i need to move on and get over you somehow but thats impossible to do when you have something that is mine i need it back so i can peice my life back as much as possible dont think i will be whole again, what did i not do for you? i cleaned your house i cooked your meals did your laundry and held a job too i thought life was pretty good for you, you went to work and came home i never asked for anything but love from you. that you never gave me even though you told me you loved me a time or two but they were only words you felt nothing for me at all 10 years i was a wife a mother a maid and a punching bad for you i dont understand what is wrong with me why i cant get over you you broke my heart into many pieces i can never love again you cheated on me with every girl that came along one after the other my feeling didnt matter to you ever at all i took it when you hit me i did my best to protect the kids i should be happy you left me instead of crying and being depressed i should be thanking you for walking out on us but my love for you i cant forget i cant help but hate you im angery and pist off too but through all those emotions i cant believe i still love you the thought of living forever without you by myside o i dont want to go on id rather be dead ive done everything but end my life and still my love for you i cant forget after all you put me through all the times you bruised and broke my body and the creul stuff you said, after the way you treated our babies and the time you blacked our daughters eye i should be thanking god not asking you why. one day it will be over and judgment will come tell what will you tell your creator tell me your reason why? are you that heartless and cold? i have to get my self together i need to forget the past i should be happy you are not able to hurt me you can no longer kick my ass