I Seize To Exist

“Why do I have to take care of a body that doesn’t take care of me?” “Why do I have to live a life I didn’t ask for in the first place?” “Why do I have to continue living for others, when you can’t live for yourself?” Its like struggling to breathe and realizing you’re suffocating yourself. It’s a fight you can’t win, because you’re up against yourself. It’s something that never ends and you can’t remember when it began because the darkness floods everything. It steals everything remotely beautiful, leaving you alone in a room to destroy yourself. It makes you the villain, turning on yourself. Tonight, I am alone in this room I am amongst my breaking point. I won’t come back from this. I’m too far gone to save myself. This is how I seize to exist.