I Scream So Loud

I scream so loud. It hurts my ears. I can't begin to express My worries and fears. For years they have Been swept under a rug, But now, at last, They're being undug. All those years, The worries haunted me. I can't believe That nobody did see. The trust is broken With those who were close. I'm sorry to say this. It causes me to feel morose. I'm worried I May never have friends Unless my definition Of them bends. The friends I did have Were liars who'd cheat. Over and over, These acts they'd repeat. They lied to me. I'd fall for it. Now I feel, It's time to quit. I don't need the screams. I don't need the pain. I deserve better. This I will gain. I'll pray to God. He won't mislead. Rather Him alone I trust. He's the only one I need.