I Remember

I remember really feeling this void ... I mean its really kinda hard to explain ... It was 1985 in December ... A month later in this world I came ... I remember having complications... Nurses screaming baby breathe.. but i cant?? The doctor said I mite not make it ... Cause there's was too many drugs in ur veins Crack baby was my very first label... SMH that's a gd shame... I remember being 11 years old... blood dripping down my nose like paint ... Unconscious on that bathroom floor... they saying there something wrong with my brain ... 30 years with Attention Disorder ... I remember your the one I blame ... And I still don't have a clue where I came from ... My birth mother's still M.I.A...?? I remember when my heart held hope.. And one day I would see your face ... At this point I don't even need closure.. I guess its just a little to late .. The only thing that we will ever have in common ... just the sequence in our D.N.A... Did you know that you have grand daughter... Another child that you'll never embrace ... I remember what hurts the most ... I don't even know your name..