I Remember

I remember what you called me The names, they stung so deep I remember the way you hurt me And left me with broken memories to keep I remember how you spat at me And left me feeling worthless I remember how you yelled at me Your words cut deep beneath the surface I remember how you lied to me You made me feel so dumb I remember how you shoved me Your striking left me numb I remember when they spoke to me And asked if I was fine I remember not knowing what to say I was living on the front line I remember how they listened As I told them I was sad I remember they asked why And I said 'its my dad'. I remember we had drifted apart For reasons no one knew I remember I would sit in bed And I would cry because of you I remember how, when they appeared, My daddy went away I remember in his place, a man, That left our home in disarray I remember as I write this letter dad I remember asking why I remember asking why you changed And I remember saying goodbye I remember you didn't notice I said 'bye' instead of 'night' I remember how you shoved me off And now I'm ending my life tonight I know you won't be sorry, dad You won't even be sad I know that you won't miss me, dad Because I've always been so bad I don't know why you hate me dad I just know that you do And I hope that when you sleep at night You know that I blame you.