I Refuse To Let It Win

Yes it's true,drugs are not the way to go I'm sorry for the stress I caused, I never ment to hurt you, I really tried to stop Using every excuse, I ran as fast as I could, stealing from my loved ones just to make it through, drugs slowly took over ,I didn't know what to do One day I saw an image, I realized it was me,I was looking in the mirror ,I cried in disbelief, how did I let this happen, why was I so weak, I hate the person I'd become I prayed for god to help me I lost control of everything but what killed me finally ,was the day my kids said bye to me ,I no longer cared to breath I don't know how it happened, I believe I do know when all this nightmare started the day that I said yes, I placed that tool in front of me and took my very first hit, I remember like it was yesterday ,I hate myself for it My story doesn't end like this ,as hard as it was for me ,I stopped making excuses and started to be brave, I refused to be another statistic ,I fought to find my way I needed to get my heart back ,my kids gave me the strength, I didn't make excuses ,I dealt with the pain and shame , I heald my head up high, proud of who I became, I'm glad to say I'm sober now , This drug didn't take me to my Grave .