I Never Knew

I let you get away with some things But, as I saw you go, my heart began to forlorn You were in the light with me, But we both stepped out of the light And the darkness swallowed us whole We corrupted each other…and now I long to be in His light I never knew your bad side Until the day you’ve forgotten me I never knew your good side Until the day you’ve spoken to me My hands trembled… But they remained tough My heart stumbled upon regret And I told myself that that’s enough Sometimes, you uplifted me But, other times, you pulled me down to your own level I never knew your bad side Until the day you’ve forgotten me I never knew your good side Until the day you’ve spoken to me You made me drink in your dismay Every time I talk to you, you wanted me to pass away… Vanish away…like the wind, spiraling around the place You played your mind games all over again And I always played along…and somehow, I was drawn to you And now, I feel guilty for giving in to you I never knew your bad side Until the day you’ve forgotten me I never knew your good side Until the day you’ve spoken to me I should put a stop to this nonsense…for it has been a magnet of strife I bet you never considered me in the first place…we never met eye to eye I should just pretend that you were never in my life I get upset and I hide my face…I wish I knew the reason why There’s a boulder between us…and it’s unbreakable… I feel that I’m invisible…Oh God – are we both instable? I never knew your bad side Until the day you’ve forgotten me I never knew your good side Until the day you’ve spoken to me When I sat next to you at the library, I felt you were kind and pleasant When I sat next to you during the rally, I felt you were listening to every word I uttered I wanted to act decent Around you…but I felt resentment Towards the days that led me to loneliness I never knew your bad side Until the day you’ve forgotten me I never knew your good side Until the day you’ve spoken to me I’ve looked around to find you, But I was too timid to go up to you I’ve hopped over the fire and I never knew That I was too late to say goodbye to you But, there’s always tomorrow To say my greetings to you