I Never Got To Say Goodbye

You were my life you know so to go in an instant took mine and your breath away And I still haven't gotten mine back seven months later to this very day You see you are my sunshine on a rainy day or any day as a matter of fact And with sun you lack vitamin D and your body gets deficient and it hurts back But measures to the pain of losing you on that dreadful day Not surgery, an accident, not having money, anything in my way For you know Kymber we were joined through a cord for nine months I almost died then, but you were so worth it and even this pain that may kill me Just to see the smiles, the giggles, the hugs and the kisses you see Because you came from me, inside of me, my miracle baby I loved you inside of me and outside there was never a maybe First they told me it was a crime scene I couldn't see you at all I knew if they brought you out in a bag I would scream bloody murder and fall down on my knees and weeps uncontrollably and then I heard "Mam you can see her, but you can't touch her it's a crime scene" the words I walked in gently and I saw lying on the living room floor so still I kissed her face all over and brushed her hair back and with all my will I asked her to wake up, please, please, I begged, Kymber you can do this Just wake up! Please honey, do it for Mommy, honey and I gave her a kiss Don't you do this Kymber Michelle, you can't do this to me I can't take or make it without my darling baby Just wake up Kymber do it, like I know you can I thought I saw her eyes flutter to wake and to stand come on baby that's the way do it! But she just stayed there not moving they were flashing a flashlight to tell me it's over I kissed her desperately on her face everywhere, I didn't care then I saw her little feet, I loved that child's feet and I asked if I could kiss them they said "sure" and I reached and I kissed them and I cried, put them down then I walked out in shock, not believing what I saw and I couldn't say and talk with her Tell her goodbye where she'd hear me and know and say " I love you forever" I saw a body that the life was stolen from by the hands should have never made that decision at all, he took my heart too that wretched day when he tore us apart I forgive him because God does and I'm not the Judge I love you Kymber Michelle and whenever I hear a bell I'll know it's you saying " I love you, Mommy"