I Made Up My Mind

WILL I FORGIVE MY MOM? WILL I FORGET ABOUT HER? I HAD MADE UP MY MIND WHEN THE PAIN STARTED TO CONSTINCTLY HURT ME AS MUCH. WILL I STAND UP FOR MYSELF? YES I WILL,I HAD MADE THAT UP IN MY MIND WHEN I FELT AS IF I WAS FIGHTING DEATH SUCH WALTZING IS NOT EASY.CAN I EVER LOVE LIKE I DID TO BEFORE? OR WILL I EVER COME TO SEE WHAT SPECIAL GIFTS LIFE HAS IN STORE FOR ME?WHAT CAN I DO WHEN I AM HURTING DEEP DOWN INSIDE? I COULD CONTINUE TO CRY! OR I COULD JUST WIPE THE TEARS AWAY FROM MY BROWN> EYES! WHAT IS LIFE? WHY DO I FEEL SO MUCH PAIN? AND ALL THE PAIN I FEEL DOES NOT FEEL THE SAME, BUT IT'S DDRIVING ME INSANE. I AM NO LONGER CONFUSED, I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT TO DO,BECAUSE I HAVE HONESTLY MADE UP MY MIND.BUT HAVE I REALLY MADE UP MY MIND? THAT'S A QUESTION THAT I WILL KNOW THE ANSWER TO IN A VERY UNCONDITIONAL TIME.......