I Love You

I picked her but I love you I didnt want to ruin your life too but living each day as if I dont is killing me, inside I feel broke I just wish I could hold you and just tell you I love you so I want to hold you for a moment but you know I cant I love you, but Im not allowed to say I love you Im a coward for not dumping her to be with you so Ill just keep cutting until I do when I see you what will I do inside Ill want to run right up to you simply hold you and never let go kiss you just to let you know I love you but dont know what to do Because its impossibly hard loving two My heart used to be red and full of love But now its one hundred shades of blue So many thoughts went through my head i had so much i wanted to say but i just couldnt find the way in my arms you fitted so right i just wanted to hold you tight i wanted to stay with you forever and not let you go forever i let you go and walked away,i know that i should have stayed i wanted to kiss you but i dont know why i couldnt do it,so i said goodbye i wanted to turn back with every step i got home and i just wept