I Lost

I LOST When my dad called me ugly, stupid and worthless, as that little girl, I lost! When my mother didn't protect me from the cruelty and abuse at home, I lost! When a bad man came into my room exposing himself, as that little girl, I lost! When a boyfriend blackened my eyes and fractured my cheekbone, I lost! When my precious dogs, Rocky and Brownie died in my arms, I lost! When a car struck me and I suffered life altering injuries, I lost! When I received the call saying, “Your mother is dead,” I lost! When I watched my loving and honorable brother succumb to cancer, I lost! When my closest friend committed suicide, I lost. When I see the painful expression in my son’s weary eyes, I’ve lost. When I realize there isn’t anyone or anything else to fight for, I say to you one last time, I lost!