I Look In the Mirror

I look in the mirror and all I see Is an unhappy face staring back at me I try to smile to hide my shame But still my unhappiness is the same I tried talking, walking, writing how I feel But I am still unhappy and that's real People stare and point but I pay them no mind When it comes to family and friends, I try to leave it behind I cry as I wonder why I feel like this Like there is no way out and I'm tired of fighting with my fist I look in the mirror and all I see Is an unhappy face staring back at me I can smile and pretend that I am living the dream But fake smiles and laughter aren't always what they seem You would know how I feel when you look into my eyes My eyes are the only thing I can't disguise As time flies by and nights get cold My pretend happiness gets old My kids and their kids can see that I am done here Even when I try to laugh through all my tears All my life I wanted more than this And when my time comes I won't be missed I look in the mirror and all I see Is exactly what I don't want my life to be....