I Hate You

i use to believe you actually loved me but after over five years i realize you never did all i have to remember you by is one birhtday card and a purplelava lamp almost sixteen years of life and that's the day that still haunts my dreams hearing a door slam shut watching you drive away not knowing it was forever i hope you know how much i cried for you that day going into fifth-grade was the worst people talked about summer vacations and days with their parents how could i tell everyone you'd left everything got worse from there brithdays ands holidays forgotten trying to act like i never cried i hate you for leaving every christmas without at least a card a christmas night i spend crying every birthday, every thanksgiving without at least a phone call is one spent crying in secret at night i'll never let you know you hurt me never let it show that i care i hate you for doing this to me