I Feel

WARNING: This poem is dark and may trigger some audiences. I feel alone. Even though I can call up a friend any moment and they would come. I feel darkness. But light surrounds me everywhere I go. I feel sad. Although my life that surrounds me deserves happiness. My family deserves my happiness. My friends deserve my happiness. Everyone deserves my happiness but me. I feel nervous. Yet I know there is nothing to worry about with God by my side. I feel worried. Even though I know I'm safe. I feel concerned. Although the world that surrounds me is carefree. My family deserves me to be carefree. My friends deserve me to be carefree. Everyone deserves me to be carefree but me. I feel hurt. Even though the pain only comes from my thoughts. I feel nauseous. But my arm is bleeding because of my own actions. I feel tired. But I know that I will be happy this way. My family deserves to be happy and carefree. My friends deserve to be happy and carefree. Everyone deserves to be happy and carefree and now it's my turn. I DO NOT PROMOTE OR AGREE WITH SUICIDE THIS IS JUST HOW I FEEL.