I Don'T Know How To Anymore

How do I stop the world from spinning? Because I was really never very good at keeping my balance. How do I ask my world to stop falling apart at the seams? Because I was never very quick with a needle and thread. How do I tell the people around me how my newest love affair is actually between my fingernails and my forearm? Because I was never very open about my new relationships. How do I see a future for myself through this fog? Because I was never very understanding of the idea of looking on the bright side when the sun wasn't visible. How do I continue on a journey that, trust me, I want to finish but don't have the heart for anymore? Because as I get weaker, the world spins more, my world is ripping to shreds, I can never control the passion between my hands and my wrists, and the sun isn't coming out for a long, long time. So, I'm asking you for help, because I want to finish but there are just too many "how's" in my way.