I Cried Today

I Cried Today I am thirteen today You would think I would be happy Yet it is hard to even crack a smile With everyone wishing me a Happy Birthday To me it’s not that happy As today strange voices carrying on inside me They say I don’t deserve to live They say I should die I am thirteen and I Cried Today My sweet sixteen isn’t so sweet I just want to hide Go back to sleep Or simply disappear What is a girl to do? When she feels so sad, lonely and depressed I don’t even have anyone to turn to I am sixteen and I Cried Today Today I am nineteen It is my graduation day And while I am smiling on the outside I feel like I am crumbling on the inside Those voices don’t give Never a break No rest for the wicked they say I am nineteen and Today I Cried I am twenty-one No drinking for me I am in a hospital as my first sip was almost my last Who knew I could be so allergic I am twenty-one In a hospital and I Cried Today I am twenty-five I thought I was in love Until I walked in on my fiancé In bed with my best friend My heart feels so cold I am so alone As my world has just turned upside down I am twenty-five and I Cried Today I am thirty I am working hard To get back my life Take control of my future And actually see the possibilities of a tomorrow It is a lot of work With a hard road ahead I am Thirty I Never Cried Today I am thirty-four In a few short months I will be thirty-five I am not alone I realize I never was Surrounded by people I love People who love me Married to the love of my life My dreams are coming true I feel so happy I am almost thirty-five and I Smiled Today By: Jean Shular